Friday, September 12, 2008


We are headed out of town this weekend and having a sleepover at the grandparent's house. The girls are so excited and have been talking about it for days.

Part of me looks forward to getting out of town, what with everything that has been happening, and another part of me just wants to stay home and avoid the long drive. This will be the baby's first long trip and I hope he will do well. If we're lucky, he'll nap most of the way and I can breastfeed him as soon as we get to our destination.

While we are away, we plan to make the most of our trip. The last time we were out that way, was back in the Spring because I was pregnant and we stayed close to home. We are long overdue for a visit and we are going to make several stops to see different people and places while we're up there. Low funds + high gas prices = killing several birds with one stone.

Living where we do, in the mountains, it's hard to pull ourselves away and go into the "city". It's so peaceful here, with the winding roads and gorgeous views of pastures, valleys and mountains. Hardly any traffic and no stoplights for miles and miles. Going into the city makes me clench my fists and grind my teeth together, with all the traffic and crazy drivers and rush, rush, rush! We always look forward to coming home again after a visit to the city and this is what I am counting on-- looking forward to coming home after feeling like I wanted to move away.

If I can come back and be happy to be home again after a few days, despite what has been going on with CPS and the doctors, then I'll stick around and tough it out. But if we come home and dread the upcoming week and beyond, then we may have to do some serious talking about what the future holds for us. Wait and see...

Have a good weekend and I'll be back in a few days.


DJ Kirkby said...

Hope you enjoy your holiday and then come home refreshed and feeling stronger. Do not run away, your home will feel special again soon.

sufferingsummer said...

I too hope you are able to come home fresh and feeling like you are in your home sweet country home again. I get that feeling of the city. I look out at it everyday from my windows wishing a bit that the street lights were silos and the streets pasture. So much rush rush does not do a body good.
Oh and that picture is too much. Simply adorable.

Sarah and Jack said...

Hey Jenny, I dont see an email address for you anywhere around here. Could you email me when you have a sec please?

Lindy said...

:) I hope the babys first trip went well and I'm glad to hear you're keeping busy and keeping your spirits up. I'll say it again and again Jenny, you are one awesome mom and should be damn proud of your family. :)

Now get on back here and tell us about your trip! :)

barefoot gardener said...

Oh, hon. You have worked so hard to make your home all that you have dreamed of. Don't let this one thing ruin it for you. It seems that if you left your home you would be letting that idiot doctor win. You know you have done nothing wrong, and we know you have done nothing wrong. It would be a shame to let an untruth have so much control over you.

Whatever you decide, we will all still be here for you.....((((hugs))))

jenny said...

Dj & Summer-- We had a good time, and am glad to be back home again. More to tell in my next post. xo

Sarah-- sure thing!

Lindy-- Aw sweets, thank you! I try to do what is best for my family in the best way I can. Baby did good! :o) xo

Barefoot-- That's what I tell myself, we have so many plans and dreams we want to do here, and we looked up homes for sale here and there, but nothing comes close to the house we have now. We're certainly spoiled by living here and it would take a lot to equal or top it.